transdimensional vortex

that green comet 

just shined on

bringin no lovejoy.

my ex took all his stuff from

my place

brought my clothes

in a xmas bag

no lace

4 years thrown

without grace 

bullhitch

by a bf

Who, what, why...

I've diagnosed myself with breast cancer in a deep meditative state in the beginning of 2012, after a series of highly traumatic events. That time the mammogram didn't give countenance to my auto-diagnosis, as of the opinion of radiologists, yet it was there, growing... and only in September 2013. I was officially declared being ill. 

I had a skin sparing mastectomy on the left side, in November 2013. I got 25 doses of radiation in 2014, I am on a therapy that I call "dewomanizer". It means that I take anti-estrogens, which didn't seem to work for ore than 4 months, since my estrogen level was so high that my period just didn't stop.

I am dewomanized.

Now I am 42,5 years old. I have 2 sons, my boyfriend left me, and I really understand him, we couldn't go on anymore... I am facing a reconstructive surgery soon.

I have extremely low self esteem, and would never show my scars to anyone, especially not in public, but not even in bed... So as you see this image above, I can only dream of a sexual partner at this point, which is more than annoying, since my arousal increased with time...

I decided to document my struggle with this situation in a blog, illustrated by diverse images, stories, slam poetry, created by me,  that make me feel happy now.

From tomorrow, until the reconstructive surgery and until my tat on the breast will be done, I will upload a public image to make myself happier and to support my self-esteem and health.

I hope it will give hope to others in similar situations too!

Please leave any questions or comments, I will be happy to respond.

Let love rule!